One day while I was looking around I happened upon some YouTube posts from others like myself going through this process. I felt the relief of not being alone and answers to so many of my questions. I spent the better part of a year watching videos from dozens of T-girls and T-boys who had gone through so many challenges and came out so much stronger in the end. These stories gave me the confidence to start my own journey.
Once I was well on my way I felt a need to give back. One day I finished setting up my own account and started sharing my story. My hope is that doing so will help someone just as it helped me. Currently I only have a couple videos, but hope to have many more soon.
|Christmas party 2012. First time my|
coworkers saw me in a dress.
As for my results, I did see a significant reduction in areas of masculine body hair. My skin has also become much softer making my features appear much more feminine. Some fat relocation gave me the appearance of hips and I lost a bit of muscle in my arms. Watching my diet has been somewhat more important lately as well; it is a bit harder to lose weight now.
By the time I was six I knew that I was different, even if I wasn’t sure why. My brothers would want to go ride four wheelers or go take something apart. Me on the other hand I enjoyed spending time with my cousins and playing house. While nobody seemed to really care that I did so, I did feel like I didn't belong. I desperately sought the approval of my siblings and anytime they would question my activities I felt like I was an outcast. Often this lead to me just playing alone.
I believed that if I didn't do stuff with the girls then I wouldn’t look different, and if I didn't play with the boys then I wouldn’t have to do things I didn't like to do. It was very lonely and I felt lost for most of my youth. After a while I learned how to watch other boys and see how I should act. I had to live a lie, but at least I felt accepted.
|Last photo before I started|
When I finally made the decision to tell them I told everyone within the same week. I figured it would be easier to deal with everyone all at once then one at a time. They asked a lot of questions and we had some points of blaming and crying, but overall it went well. It took several months for things to calm down enough to where I felt that my family was OK with my decision.
|My very best friend and I on a road trip!|