But back to me. I am 55 years of age and I have been married to my wife for 33 years – 30 years as husband and wife and 3 years as wife and wife. We have two children both of which have left the nest for more than a dozen years. And I am a, well, grandparent. My wife is “Granny” whilst I am “Hannah” which is the way their parents and my wife are comfortable with. I am curios when the grandchildren will figure out that “Hannah” isn’t a relationship term but my first name. :) I work as an English teacher at a college. I could also teach physics and astronomy which I studied in the late 1970s and early 1980s… if these were subjects here.
I am also a certified skydiving tandem instructor. One of less than two dozen females amongst more than 600 in Germany. And, as far as I know, the only active transgender TI in the world. Not that we advertise this, though. My students simply jump with this 6’1” tall woman. 600+ tandem jumps so far (and counting) of more than 2,000 jumps. My story made it onto the cover of Blue Sky Magazine.
|Riding her canopy at about 2,500 ft - one of the fun jumps|
she can make when the dropzone is less busy with tandems.
However, the videos of young trans girls blossoming and transitioning successfully simply dragged me down. After all, I looked so übermale, so old, so bald, and so ugly. There seemed to be no way and no hope I could transition successfully.
And then, there it was: A video about a trans woman whose life was very similar to mine. All of a sudden there was hope. I could – at least – try. Good I did, huh?
|At a shopping mall in her town, in June 2015,|
some weeks after GCS.
And then, I simply shoot the video. No post-edit except from adding the title. I don’t like videos that are heavily edited, where every pause is cut out. Even if it is done well you notice. I like single-shot videos better, they are more authentic. After all, pauses, fill-words, searching for words, all this is part of day-to-day communication.
|Taking a New Year's (2017) Day stroll|
with her wife.
|At her gym, after working out and|
enjoying the endorphins. Jan 2017.
|At her college in a class of English.|
My request was granted as much as a beautiful woman picked me. She taught me what love means. She is my first and only love. Had she not picked me, I would certainly have put an end to my miserable earthly life. She couldn’t “cure” me, but this part of my begging the Lord was wise enough to not listen to. So now that I live authentically not a single day goes by without me being grateful for her being my partner and my love. And my children, I love them, of course.
|Winter walking with her wife in|
Davos, Switzerland. (Feb 2017)