Born in Greece and raised in Belgium, Eden Dintsikos spent much of her early life hiding parts of herself, experimenting with makeup privately before eventually finding the confidence to express herself openly through an androgynous, goth-inspired style. Around the age of twenty, as her body became more masculine, Eden began questioning whether she could become a woman. Fear of rejection kept her awake at night until she finally confided in her boyfriend, who became one of her strongest sources of support. She later began hormone replacement therapy and underwent facial feminization surgery, describing the changes as small victories and saying that, for the first time, she was beginning to love her body.
Eden also chose to document her transition on YouTube, hoping to help other trans women while educating people who had little understanding of transgender experiences. Her story carries both painful memories of family rejection and a profound appreciation for the love she found in her relationship with Do. She dreams of becoming a nurse, creating a home together, and building the happy family she always wanted. Open, determined, and unafraid to speak about both the difficult and joyful parts of transition, Eden’s message is ultimately one of self-belief: other people may judge you, but they should never decide your worth or your happiness.
Monika: Hello, Eden. Could you say a few words about yourself?
Eden: Where to start... I am 22 years young, born in Greece but living in Belgium since 2001, and I am in a relationship with Do for the past three and a half years. I spend a lot of time crafting and making YouTube videos.
Monika: What made you decide to share the details of your transition on YouTube?
Eden: I started a craft channel on YouTube a year ago, before I was on HRT, and a lot of people started noticing that I was slowly changing. Also, I was about to get facial feminization surgery, so I felt the need to talk about what was going on, because my subscribers would notice it anyway. So I created a new channel, which was going to be all about my transition.
The main reason is that I want to help other trans girls out there by giving them information and answers about transitioning, and also, I hope to educate people about this topic, especially those who have no experience with the subject, to help them understand and accept us the way we are, and let them see what we’re going through.
Monika: At what point in your transition journey are you right now, and how does it feel to be at this stage?
Eden: At this point, I’m right at the beginning. I’ve started hormone replacement therapy about a month and a half ago, so I have a pretty long way to go! It’s very exciting though, and I am so happy to be going through this. There are moments where I’m still adjusting to the changes, but they feel like small victories. I’m also learning more about myself as I progress, which has been both challenging and rewarding. The support from friends and the transgender community has been invaluable in helping me feel like I’m not alone on this journey. There’s a lot of hope and anticipation about how I’ll grow over the next few months and years. I’m taking it one step at a time, and each day brings new experiences.
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| 3 months after her FFS. |
Monika: Are you happy with the changes hormone therapy has brought so far, and how has it affected you both physically and emotionally?
Eden: Even though I’m just at the beginning, I’ve already changed a lot. I don’t mean only the way that I look, but also mentally, I feel so much happier with myself, more confident, and for the first time in my life, I’m starting to love my body. I also look at things differently, more positively and less judgmentally. The way I view the world and people has shifted too, I’m learning to embrace both the good and bad with a new perspective. It’s like I’m seeing things through a lens of self-acceptance, and that’s incredibly freeing. Of course, there are still tough days, but the good moments really outweigh them. The small changes, like feeling more aligned with myself, make it all worth it. I’m excited to see where this journey takes me, and I’m hopeful for what’s to come.
Monika: Take me back to your childhood. When did you first feel that you shouldn’t be a boy or a man?
Eden: I started experimenting with make-up at the age of 17. I used to lock myself in my grandma’s bathroom (I was adopted by her after my mom died when I was 14 years old) and play with her make-up. She never knew about this. I felt disgusted and was ashamed to tell anyone, so I kept doing this in private, where nobody could see me.
Monika: What changed once you left home and started finding your own way in the city?
Eden: I left my grandparents’ home at the age of 18 and rented an overpriced “shoebox” in the big city. It’s there where I actually found myself and finally had the guts to show myself like this in public. I started wearing more extreme make-up, everything over the top and a bit drag queen-ish, a bit goth. I felt great expressing myself like this. I bought clothes from the male sections and also from the female sections. I felt great looking androgynous, and gender wasn’t an issue for me back then.
Monika: When did that sense of ease start to shift for you?
Eden: But things changed. At the age of 20, my body started to become more masculine. Facial and body hair started growing, my shoulders got bigger, and I just didn’t like the person I saw in the mirror anymore. I had a year where I couldn’t sleep at night. I kept awake thinking about myself, starting HRT, and becoming a woman. These thoughts scared me so much, because I was so afraid of not being accepted by the people around me, and because I was ashamed of myself for being this way.
So one of these sleepless nights, I was lying next to my boyfriend, who was asleep, and I woke him up at three in the morning and told him everything. He was obviously shocked! He didn’t expect this, but I knew he would stay by my side whatever happened. And he still is, after three years.
Monika: For many transgender people, school and university bring real hardship and discrimination. Did you face anything like that, or were you spared those struggles?
Eden: I came out a year after I graduated, so I luckily didn’t have to deal with any of this. Even though I’m sure the people in my class would have accepted it completely, we had a great relationship with each other, and I still have contact with them. I feel really fortunate in that regard. However, I know a lot of others didn’t have the same experience, and it breaks my heart to hear about those struggles. I think it’s a testament to the importance of building supportive and inclusive environments, both at school and beyond. I didn’t have the added stress of that, but I can only imagine how much courage it takes for those who do. I’m really proud of the way society is changing, though, and I hope that more people can experience the kind of acceptance I was fortunate to have.
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| 3 or 4 years old in her godmother's garden. |
Monika: Are there any transgender role models who have inspired you as you navigate your journey?
Eden: Definitely, the wonderful and beautiful Miss Carmen Carrera. I fell in love with her after seeing her on RuPaul’s Drag Race, and when I found out that she started hormone replacement therapy, I was like, “Hell yeah!” It’s so great having such a wonderful individual being a role model for so many others. Her confidence and authenticity really resonate with me. I also admire how she’s been so open about her journey, which helps normalize the process for people like me. Watching her embrace her transition has made me feel more at peace with my own. It’s empowering to see someone so unapologetically themselves and succeeding the way she has. It gives me hope for my future and a sense of community in this shared experience.
Monika: What was the most challenging part of coming out, and how did your loved ones react?
Eden: Telling my grandparents and younger brother about this. I actually came out to them after a year of going to the gender clinic, two weeks before I got my facial feminization surgery, so way too late, and they didn’t really have a lot of time to process. Sadly, I can’t really say that they’re happy with my decision, but they know they’ll have to accept it to make me happy. It was hard because I had always been close to them, and I didn’t want to hurt them. I think they’re still coming to terms with it, but I hope they’ll eventually see how much happier I am now. The silence after I told them was deafening, and it felt like there was so much unsaid. I gave them space to process, but it’s been an emotional journey for all of us. I’ve learned to give them time, but it’s also taught me that my happiness is worth fighting for, even if it’s hard for others to understand at first.
Monika: How do you see the current situation for transgender women in Belgium, both in terms of rights and social acceptance?
Eden: Transgender people have the same rights as any other person here in Belgium, but I feel we should get more help defending ourselves when we face discrimination. Belgians are pretty open-minded, but when it comes to transgender individuals, I feel like they don’t know much about us and can be quick to judge or make fun of us. There’s still a lot of education that needs to happen, especially in everyday spaces like work, school, and even healthcare. I’ve personally experienced moments where people just don’t know how to approach the topic of being transgender, and it can lead to uncomfortable situations. But I also see progressive groups and activists working hard to shift these attitudes, which gives me hope. I think things are slowly improving, but we’re still a long way from full acceptance. It’s important that the general public becomes more informed, and that we keep advocating for our rights.
Monika: Are you into fashion? What kind of outfits do you usually go for?
Eden: I have a love/hate relationship with fashion. I actually hate it. I feel like there are so many beautiful things out there you can wear, so there’s no need to follow trends or wear designer clothes all the time. I have a huge love for black, ever since I was a teenager.
Everything I own is mostly black, tight, skinny clothes, and I usually like to wear oversized cardigans for a vampy look. I also have a passion for beautiful shoes, especially Jeffrey Campbell heels, but unfortunately, the costs of my transition are so high that it makes it a bit hard for me to spend so much money on shoes.
Monika: What do you think about transgender beauty pageants?
Eden: I don’t really like pageants, because I feel a person shouldn’t be compared to another to see who is the most beautiful, since we’re all beautiful in our own way, and beauty is different for everyone. But on the other hand, I’m happy that trans women get the chance to participate in them, since they’re not allowed to be in “normal” pageants, which I obviously don’t agree with.
Monika: Are you involved in your local LGBT community?
Eden: Not really. The only way I try to have contact with people from the LGBT community is via the internet, and that’s mostly with other transgender girls, to share experiences.
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| On a school trip to Barcelona. |
Monika: Do you see marriage and a family in your future? What does love mean to you?
Eden: Love is really important to me, since I didn’t really experience it the way I should have when I was younger.
I moved from Greece to Belgium after my parents’ divorce, when I was 8 years old. My brothers and I got bullied a lot when we moved to this country, and we never fit in anywhere. The bad relationships my mom had with horrible men back then, who made us suffer so badly, and her death, brought the entire family a lot of tears and sorrow.
Monika: How did those early years shape your relationship with your family afterward?
Eden: After that, growing up in a boarding school for six years, and spending weekends at grandma’s house, was not really pleasant. I didn’t have a good relationship with my mom’s parents, and I never felt like I had someone who loved me or someone I could love. When I got into my first serious relationship at the age of 17 and came out to my Greek family as gay, they were so ashamed of me that I stopped existing for them. I haven’t talked to my dad and brothers for almost four years.
Monika: Given all of that, where do you find love and belonging today?
Eden: At this point, the only thing I can do is build my own family to love and be happy with. I am so blessed to have an amazing boyfriend who has been there for me, even before he knew I wanted to become the other sex, and who has supported me like no one else did, from the beginning. I’ve never felt love as strong as I do for him, the first person who ever made me feel special and good enough for others.
Monika: What would you say to transgender women who feel afraid of early transition, discrimination, and hatred?
Eden: It’s normal to be afraid at the beginning. Starting your transition is a big deal and should be well thought through. You shouldn’t let people around you make the decision for you, because it’s all about you being happy in the end. I wish I’d known this much sooner, so that I would have started my transition much earlier. As for discrimination and hatred, people will always find something to make fun of you if that’s really their intention. Just believe in yourself, and don’t let anyone ever tell you you’re not beautiful, because you are.
Monika: What’s next for you, and where do you see yourself in the next five to seven years?
Eden: Since I started my transition, I’ve had a hard time finding a job, but I don’t give up hope, and I keep trying. Besides that, I am considering going back to school to become a nurse, finding a good job, buying a house to make it our home, and building a happy life with Do.
Monika: Would you say you are a happy woman now?
Eden: Definitely.
Monika: Eden, it was a pleasure to interview you. Thank you so much.
Eden: Thank you, Monika, for having me here and giving me the opportunity to appear on your blog.
All the photos: courtesy of Eden Dintsikos.
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