Thursday, 9 November 2017

Interview with Rachel Eliason

Monika: Today it is my pleasure and honour to interview Rachel Eliason, a fiction and nonfiction writer, speaker, the author of the biographical book titled “The Agony, The Ecstasy and The Buddha: One Woman's Month in Thailand having a Sex Change” (2017). Hello Rachel!
Rachel: Hello, thanks for having me here.
Monika: Could you say a few words about yourself? When did you decide that writing will be your vocation?
Rachel: I have wanted be a writer as long as I wanted to transition. For years they were my two secret “W’s” wanting to be a woman and to be a writer.
Growing up in the U.S. Midwest in the 1970’s and 80’s, I never heard anyone say the word transgender and as far as I knew at the time, changing sex was something that only happened in science fiction. So I dismissed those feelings and tried to make the best of my life in the wrong gender.
But I developed a love of science fiction and fantasy, the one place where such things did happen. I read voraciously growing up.
Being a writer wasn’t impossible, but it was impractical at best. I made scattered attempts as a kid and later as a young adult to write and sell stories, but I never really stuck to it.
I remember telling my mother, shortly before leaving for Thailand, that was really scared me wasn’t the surgery or the transition. It was that it meant I had to become a writer. I had done something that I had once thought impossible, become a woman. So what was my excuse to not pursue my dream of being a writer? I had none.
Monika: You differentiate your science fiction and fantasy books written under the initials of R. J. Eliason from your contemporary YA LGBT fiction
Rachel: I do. I use my initials with my science fiction and fantasy writing, in the vein of many other writers in the genre, from J. R. R. Tolkien to J. K. Rowling. Not that I am on par with either of those names.
"Run, Clarissa, Run" (2012) available
via Amazon.
I do this mostly a courtesy to my fans. I have many sci-fi friends (I have been going to local science fiction conventions for years) that love science fiction and fantasy but never read books set in this world. I have literary friends that are the exact opposite, they read tons of contemporary fiction but loathe science fiction. Since I write both, I wanted it to be obvious at a glance whether a book was contemporary LGBT YA or speculative fiction.
I don’t make any effort to hide behind these names and when I make appearances I usually have both sets of books and talk about all my writing.
Monika: Your novels are primarily aimed at LGBT youth. Do you find such characters most inspiring?
Rachel: I find the outsider perspective to be intriguing. I like characters who have to struggle to find their place in the world more than those that fit easily into it. It’s tough when you live it, as most of us have, but it certainly makes more interesting characters. 
I’ve also spent a large portion of my life surrounded by LGBT people, even before I came out myself. My older sister is a lesbian. When I came out to my best friend from high school he told me he was a cross-dresser.
As an adult I’ve always had a huge group of LGBT, Polyamorous and Queer friends. For me to not write at least a few LGBT people into my novels feels fake somehow. When I read novels that only have straight people in them, they don’t feel completely real to me. Are there people out there who have zero LGBT people in their lives? (I know the answer, sadly, yes.)
Monika: In “Run, Clarissa, Run” (2012) and “The Best Boy Ever Made?” (2014) your transgender teenage characters face difficult moments when they want to build intimate relationships with their loved ones...
Rachel: Don’t we all? These two books in particular are set in my home state of Iowa and rooted in personal experience growing up in a small town. Clarissa’s mom loves her child, she just has no idea how to raise or deal with a trans child. The same goes for Sam’s parents in “The Best Boy Ever Made.” At least Sam’s parents do a much better job of showing that they love their transgender son, especially compared to how Alecia’s family react to Sam’s coming out.
This is reality for many transgender people I know. The best many of us can hope for is family members who don’t understand but are willing to love us anyway. I hope that as society changes there will be more parents/family members that do understand and fully accept their trans kids.
"The Best Boy Ever Made" (2014)
available via Amazon.
Monika: In “Tales the Wind Told Me” (2011) you collect tales of myth and magic indicating that they are always interwoven with your everyday life …
Rachel: I’ve always been very imaginative. I’ve loved myths and fairy tales.
In the late nineties and early two thousands I was also a big fan of Charles De Lint. I loved the way he wove fairy tale creatures and ideas into the regular world in his novels. I loved the idea that we all had a “heart place” that was the center of who we are. Some can go there in their minds, others can go there physically through magic.
I wrote several of the stories in Tales the Wind Told Me in the early two thousands and I tried to consciously recreate his style. The Maiden and the Troll and Troll Child have trolls living in Des Moines, Iowa.
I wasn’t out as transgender at the time, but my gender identity is on display in the collection nonetheless. Gemone is a science fiction story about an alien world and a sexless servant that is offered a chance to become female.
Monika: In “Bear Naked” (2013) and “The Case of Nikki Pagan” (2013) you discover even more challenging realities …
Rachel: “The Case of Nikki Pagan” is about an intersex child going through surgery against her will. Intersex is a term for people who aren’t easily defined as male or female. It can result from a wide variety of medical reasons. They are often subject to surgical “correction” to the gender that the doctor thinks most appropriate. However we are learning that doctors are often wrong and that early surgical intervention leads to a great of trauma for intersex people. Opinions on this issues are slowly shifting, more and more intersex people are allowed to grow up and voice their opinion before doctors try to “correct” them.
It was an emotionally difficult topic to tackle. And my own mother was nearing the end of her life at the time I wrote it. Nikki Pagan became a cathartic character and book. I don’t think I’ve cried so much at the keyboard as I did writing that book. But in the end I am glad I wrote it.
“Run, Clarissa, Run,” “The Best Boy Ever Made,” and “The Case of Nikki Pagan” form a sort legacy for me. All three speak to the pain I felt as an outsider growing up. They all are an attempt to speak my younger self and say, “no matter how bad it seems now, you will get through it.”
The main characters in all three books have a lot on their plates. But they are the heroes of the story. They find a way to get through it. And to young trans people I say, you will find a way. No matter how hard things seem right now, keep fighting. You are stronger than you think. You will make it through. Together we will make the world better for people like us.
Since those three books I’ve returned, mostly, to the kinds of books I loved as a kid. Science fiction, fantasy and urban fantasy. Books and stories that escape the limitations of the real world.
“Bear Naked” starts a three book series about shape shifters. The main character is a were-bear in love with a werewolf. And best friend with two were-otters. Because who doesn’t love otters? And because I can’t write a book without LGBT characters, the two otters are gender-queer lovers. And there is a lesbian werewolf in the pack.
"The Case of Nikki Pagan" (2013)
available via Amazon.
“The Mage Chronicles” is an epic fantasy. Mary, an orphan with mage level magic is content to be a simple healer, until a mission from her old teacher forces her to realize her full powers, and confront her past. (And, of course, there are several LGBT characters.) “Zoey and the Zombies” is an apocalypse book featuring a trans character who fights zombies and helps lead her group to safety.
My current writing project is an ongoing science fiction serial, released in monthly “episodes” on Amazon and twice weekly scenes on the free reading app Wattpad.
The Galactic Consortium opens with aliens showing up in earth’s skies. But they aren’t aliens at all. They are humans like us, claiming they terraformed this planet. Now they are back to use earth as a base for their exploration of this galaxy.
Season one: “The Girl in the Tank” is completed and available as one big book. Season Two: “Shoshone Station” is being released on Wattpad now.
Monika: This year you published your memoirs “The Agony, The Ecstasy and The Buddha: One Woman's Month in Thailand having a Sex Change” Why did you decide to write such a personal book? Which aspects of your experience can be useful for other transwomen?
Rachel: I decided to write this book because I thought it might be helpful to other transwomen, especially those looking to go to Thailand for surgery.
I did my best to not pull any punches about the experience. Why and how I made the decision to go to Thailand. The prep before the surgery, the highs and lows of recovery. The first time I dilated after surgery. Every thing.
Not every transwoman wants or needs surgery. But for those who do, there isn’t a lot personal accounts.
I didn’t write it thinking it would be a best seller. In fact I held onto the rough draft for over a year because I just couldn’t justify paying for editing and production on something with such a narrow audience. But I hope it helps even one person try to decide about surgery or planning their surgery, that will be enough.
Monika: At what age did you transition into woman yourself? Was it a difficult process? 
Rachel: I transitioned in my mid thirties and I wish I had done it earlier. Of course, as I’ve already said, I didn’t know the word transgender growing up. I didn’t know that other people felt like me, or that there was anything to be done about it.
The first time I met a trans person I was in my late twenties. She was gorgeous and so naturally feminine that while the meeting remains with me years later, I had trouble identifying with her. I would say, “if I could be that beautiful, of course I would transition.” I kept that as my excuse for the next couple of years. Meanwhile I met a woman, got married and had a kid.
Rachel's biography via Amazon.
It wasn’t until after my divorce, in my mid thirties, that I started to really deal with my own gender issues. I remember thinking, “I’ve done everything society says I should; married, had a family. And it’s not changed how I feel.” From that point on I knew it was up to me to discover the path that would make me happy. I tried living as a gay man, but that didn’t make me any happier. Finally I started to admit that what I wasn’t happy with was myself. I didn’t want to live as a man anymore. That’s when I started to see counselor about gender issues and to transition.
Monika: At that time of your transition, did you have any transgender role models that you followed?
Rachel: I started reading about trans people as soon as I came out and discovered many role models and trailblazers out there. I stumbled on Aleshia Brevard’s autobiography about being transgender back in the fifties and sixties. I was amazed at the strength that it took to be out in those times.
I read Jennifer Boylan’s “She’s Not There: A Life in Two Genders.” I also read Helen Boyd’s two books, “My Husband Betty” and “She’s Not the Man I Married.”
(It’s an interesting side note about how far we’ve come, and how quickly. “My Husband Betty” is actually about cross-dressing more than transgender people. It seemed revelatory at the time, and already seems pretty dated and inaccurate.)
As I started learning more about LGBT history in general, I discovered so many trans people who have been active since the beginning. I am glad that the contribution of people like Sylvia Rivera and Marsha P. Johnson are finally being recognized by the wider LGBT community. I also discovered “Stone Butch Blues” by Leslie Feinberg.
At the same time that I was reading, I joined a local support group. The group was incredibly helpful and I met many personal role models. The trans community has such an incredible diversity of people. They helped me find my way through transition and I am grateful to each and every one of them.
Monika: Are there are any transgender ladies that you admire and respect now?
Rachel: Wow. What can I say? The last ten years or so have seen such an explosion of trans people on the public scene. In 2007 you had to search the library for any reference to trans people. Media appearances were confined to interviews on shows that catered to “niche” interests. Now it seems trans people and narratives are everywhere.
I have met Mara Keisling and I admire the work that the NCTE (National Center for Transgender Equality) is doing. Actress Laverne Cox has become a gracious voice for transgender people.
I’ve watched Janet Mock, author “Redefining Realness” on several news shows talking about trans issues and I’m glad we have people like her on the national stage. And I adored Michelle Hendley in “Boy Meets Girl.”
One of the greatest joys though, is watching the next generation. They are coming out so young these days and making their marks early. I remember reading an article about Jazz Jennings when she was a child. And now she has several books out. I wish I could have had that success in coming out at her age.

Monika: We all pay the highest price for the fulfilment of our dreams to be ourselves. As a result, many trans women lose their families, friends, jobs, and social positions. Did you pay such a high price as well? What was the hardest thing about your coming out? 
Rachel: I have been really blessed, I have to say. I have had my personal struggles. And I had a lot of fear before I began my transition, but most of them haven’t come to pass.
I have to acknowledge my privilege in this. I am a transwoman, but I’m also a middle class white woman. So many transwomen have it so much worse than I do. I had to pay for the bulk of my medical transition costs out of pocket, but I had the money to do that. I’ve had people say things, but I live in a neighborhood where violent crime is rare and I’ve never been attacked.
I also have to give some props to my state. Iowa is in the Midwest and to the outsider, deeply conservative. But it also has a long history of civil rights. Transgender people are included in the state's nondiscrimination laws. My work accepted my transition without batting an eye.
So, yeah, for me the hardest part was deciding to do it.
Monika: The transgender community is said to be thriving now. As Laverne Cox announced “Trans is beautiful.” Teenage girls become models and dancers, talented ladies become writers, singers, and actresses. Those ladies with interest in politics, science, and business become successful politicians, academics, and businesswomen. What do you think in general about the present situation of transgender women in the contemporary society? Are we just scratching the surface or the change is really happening?
Rachel: We’ve definitely exploded into the public eye in the last few years. That’s the good news. The bad news is that these people are still the exception. Many trans people live in areas where there is little social acceptance and a lot of overt discrimination.
But I’ve lived through the evolution of gay and lesbian rights and especially marriage equality. There are parallels. In the early eighties almost nobody talked about gay people at all. Then came the AIDS epidemic and there was a lot of talk, most of it negative.
But gay and lesbian people started to be more open about their lives, too. They started showing up on TV and in mainstream media. Millennials grew up seeing gay people. They grew up knowing people in their lives who were out.
And study after study shows a remarkable shift in attitudes about the issues. Millennials just don’t see it as the big deal that the older generation does. Marriage equality went from being a pipe dream to the law of the land.
"Bear Naked" available via Amazon.
I think the same kind of thing can happen for trans people. When this generation grows up, having seen trans people on TV their entire lives, hearing about school mates who transitioned, knowing trans people who are living their lives openly, they won’t even understand why it’s an issue for some people. And that’s when real change will begin.
Monika: On the other hand, the restroom war is raging on and transgender women are killed on the streets…
Rachel: The restroom war is such a crock. It's entirely made up to get conservative voters outraged and to the polls, nothing more. Iowa passed a law in 2007 stating that everyone had the right to public accommodation according to their gender identity. For ten years trans women in Iowa have been using women’s restrooms without any noticeable issue. I mean you go in, you pee, you wash your hands and leave. Right?
So in ten years there was no rush by perverted men to use this law to sneak into women’s restrooms. There was no huge outcry by conservatives over the law. It wasn’t until some national politicians decided to use it as a talking point that it even became an issue.
Violence against transwoman is another issue altogether. It’s gut wrenching to hear about, to see on the news. And it’s so prevalent.
Why are transwomen so often the target of violence? Transphobia is certainly a big part, but there are some many aspects to this problem that it’s hard separate them all out.
Trans women of color are at a much higher risk of violence. Clearly racism plays a huge part. I am heartened to see Black Lives Matter champion the death of transwomen, and of many in the trans community being willing to acknowledge the BLM movement. Together we can do far more than we can alone.
In many of the cases, transwomen are killed by their own partners. Domestic violence is something that affects many cisgender woman as well. The difference is that too many women’s shelters use discriminatory definitions of what it means to be a woman, leaving trans women with few options to escape a violent partner.
Finally so many LGBT youths, especially transgender youth, end up on the streets, homeless and in harm’s way. Thanks mostly to unaccepting families.
But instead of giving up hope, the mass of interlocking issues should give us hope. They mean that there are lots of ways to attack the problem. Even little changes can help keep one trans person safe from harm. Educating homeless shelters and domestic violence shelters about trans issues and getting them to treat trans women as women could help so many people. Working with allies on broader issues around sexism can help transwomen and build bridges with mainstream feminist organizations.
And if we can manage to built a trans community that is truly open and diverse, dealing with racism, sexism and a multiple other issues along with our own LGBT issues, we can do a huge amount of good for this world.
Monika: The transgender cause is usually manifested together with the other LGBTQ communities. Being the penultimate letter in this abbreviation, is the transgender community able to promote its own cause within the LGBTQ group?
Rachel: That’s a loaded question. ;-)
I know there has been a long divisive history of conflicts within the LGBTQ community. But ultimately I think we are all in this together and we have to find ways to work together. The largest issues, those of broad social acceptance, are ones we share in common.
We all should be able to identify in ways that make us feel comfortable. We should all have the right to live our lives in peace, pursue happiness on our own terms. Politically this covers a huge amount of ground, from fighting for tougher anti bullying programs in schools to ENDA (Employee Non-Discrimination Act).
That said, there are issues that Trans people that LGB people don’t. There are medical aspects for those needing to transition, things like getting insurance companies to pay.
There is the bathroom issue, though one has to point out that conservatives seem incredibly bad at identifying actual trans people and at least as many butch lesbians and even butch looking straight women have been caught up in that as transwomen. It would be funny if it weren’t so hurtful to everyone.
On these issues we need to hold the LGB communities feet to the fire. These things might not affect them personally. But it's definitely part of their values. You can’t argue that you should have the right to pursue happiness in your own way and then deny the next person the same rights. We just need to keep reminding them, as often as necessary, that the fight isn’t over.
And we need to keep educating them on trans issues. There is, sadly, transphobia in the LGB community. We need to keep pushing, keep educating them. We need to remind our LGB allies that acceptance is one of their values, something they fought for. They just need to broaden it to include trans people.
And trans people need to remember that when the next person comes along and wants to address racism in the trans community, or ask to be more inclusive of some other minority. Hopefully, we can listen with an open mind and remember how hard it was for us to find acceptance for who we were.
"Tales the Wind Told me" available
via goodreads.
Monika: What do you think in general about transgender news stories or characters which have been featured in films, newspapers or books so far?
Rachel: I definitely have some thoughts on this, and it’s a big part of why I write what I write. I think in many ways we are still at the very tip of the iceberg on trans representation in media in two important ways.
The first is the way all too many books present being transgender. They are still largely confined to issues pieces about being transgender, rather than books about transgender characters.
They sit in their room, feeling bad about being transgender, struggling with their feelings, etc. The books often focus heavily on how their gender identity affects the people around them. Will their family accept or not? Will they be “allowed” to be transgender. (What a terrible question to even ask. You are transgender. You don’t need anyone’s permission. The only question is whether you will be allowed to live in peace or not.)
My first novel, Run, Clarissa, Run has a fair amount of that, too. But Clarissa also has a knack for computers and becomes a hacker. She runs away, intent on creating her own future, regardless of what everyone else thinks of her.
This is what we need a lot more of. Trans characters who are heroines and heros in their own right. Stories that have trans characters but aren’t solely about them being trans. Transgender readers need characters that do things, that are worth rooting for.
We have also only touched on the diversity of the trans community. I struggled with that a lot in writing Run, Clarissa, Run. How to write a character that represents the trans community?
I ended up deciding it was impossible. The community is too rich, too diverse. There are too many unique and wonderful people out there to be boiled down to one type. Instead Clarissa is patterned after specific transgender people I’ve met, but she’s not the whole community.
I made a vow as I wrote that book that I would come back and explore other trans characters, until I had done the best I could to show just how complex the community is.
In the old days Clarissa would have probably been labeled an “intense transsexual.” She’s just known since she was very young that she was supposed to be female. She wants to transition, have surgery and be seen completely as a woman.
My were-otter character Jay, is on the far side of that spectrum. He’s very feminine and dresses in women’s clothes but then denies it “means anything.” He’s waffles back and forth about his identity and it taking a frustratingly long time coming out. (At least that’s his best friend Amanda’s opinion.) Jay’s lover Corey/Courtney could give a F all about your gender roles and identity. His/her gender changes from scene to scene.
In my current science fiction serial, the Consortium recognizes that gender is on a spectrum and has over seventeen different genders. I had to create a chart to keep it all straight. But even that pales to number of ways people can identify or present themselves and their gender.
Magic and glamour.
Monika: Do you participate in any lobbying campaigns? Do you think transgender women can make a difference in politics?
Rachel: I am active in politics locally and I watch national politics closely. I’ve been an activist on a number of issues and in a number of groups. I’ve worked with local groups like One Iowa, The Des Moines Pride Center and similar organizations. I give talks locally about transgender issues. I’ve been a member of the ACLU and the Sierra Club. In short, when I disagree with the Democrats or the Left, it's usually because I’m further left than they are, rather than the other way around. ;-)
Can a transgender woman make a difference? Yes. You can. And you need to. Because no one else is going to do it.
It can be very overwhelming. There are so many problems in the world. We needed to stay focused on what we can do, what is directly in front of us. We can all do something to make our tiny piece of this world better.
Monika: Do you like fashion? What kind of outfits do you usually wear? Any special fashion brands, colours or trends?
Rachel: Fashion? What is that?
A number of facts about me work against any sort of coherent fashion.
I’m a nurse in my work life. Like a lot of nurses, I don’t really know what to wear when I don’t wear scrubs. Real people clothes?
And I’m a writer. I spend most of my time off in my attic office writing. Leave the house? But I’d have to put pants on!
And I’m a bohemian hippy neopagan. I’ve spent years hanging out at festivals and camping. When a friend had her house burn down, years ago, we all sent her clothes. They were all different sizes. So she cut them up and sewed them into a patchwork fabric and made clothes out of that. That’s my idea of style.
But fashion as in store brands? I haven’t a clue.
Monika: I have read somewhere that cisgender women were liberated thanks to the development of contraceptive pill whereas transgender women are free now thanks to the development of cosmetic surgery, so they are no longer prisoners of passing or non-passing syndrome … 
Rachel: I would say that transwomen were liberated by hormones as much as by surgery. Before worrying too much about cosmetic surgery, I suggest people spend a couple years on a hormone protocol. The changes are remarkable.
Estrogen also affects the brain, and in my case at least, it was for the better. Cisgender women often ask me, “doesn’t estrogen make you more emotional?” To which I can only respond, “Yes, but I should be. I’m a woman.” Within a few weeks after starting on estrogen my body started sending the right emotional signals to my brain. Yes, I cry more. Yes, my emotions are closer to the surface. But my depression lifted and I feel so much more comfortable with my body now.
Surgery, especially the big one that transwomen talk about, vaginoplasty, is something only your lover is going to see. It’s not going to help with passing or not passing. My therapist, also a transwoman, said that having the surgery would make about a ten percent difference in life satisfaction. I think she nailed it.
Now, for some people that ten percent is life saving. For some that’s the difference between crippling depression or being a functional human being.
But you shouldn’t be fooled into thinking that it will solve all your problems. The haters in your life are still going to hate. You will still look the same in the mirror. You won’t be “cured” of being transgender.
That said, I’m happy I went through with the procedure. I feel much more at peace with myself since the surgery. I detailed my journey in my recent release, “The Agony, The Ecstasy and the Buddha: my month in Thailand having a sex change.”
Monika: Could you tell me about the importance of love in your life?
Rachel: I often joke that I’m poly-pan-asexual. I’m happy to not sleep with multiple people of any gender or sexuality.
I’m not really asexual. But hormones have really decreased my drive and I’m sort of take it or leave it on love. I have many close friendships and I’m a pretty solitary person, so I have little desire to share my personal space with a live-in lover or spouse.
I was out as a bisexual and a polyamorous person before I came out as transgender. So I’ve never really had a conventional love life. Nor would I want one. 
Monika: Are you working on any new projects now?
Rachel: Always. My writer friends tease me about that. I am a prolific writer with a bad case of ADHD. I jump around a lot in my writing. I write every day. But I don’t always stick to a particular project or idea. So I often have multiple things going on at one time. 
Friends will ask about a novel and I will be like, “oh, that. It’s published. I’m working on this now.”
So with that in mind: I have been writing a science fiction serial. The Galactic Consortium is into its second season. The title is Shoshone Station. It takes place on a space station orbiting above Denver Colorado. Shoshone Station is the first joint enterprise between America and the Consortium and there are still lots of political issues to iron out between the two cultures and that plays a lot in the story.
The main character I follow is Sophia Bach, a homeless transgender woman who manages to get on to the station before it’s technically open to the public.
I publish “episode” of fifty to seventy pages each month. You can purchase episodes for .99 cents on most ebook platforms. Readers can also find it for free on Wattpad, though I am a couple issues behind on the free site.
Monika: What would you recommend to all transgender girls struggling with gender dysphoria?
Rachel: I would tell them to have faith. Faith is themselves and their future.
Faith in themselves because you probably already have lots of people in the world that will tell you that you are wrong about your gender, that you shouldn’t be transgender or that you will regret transitioning. I am hear to tell you to trust your own heart over any voice outside yourself. You know the truth. Keep faith in your heart.
"No matter how bleak things might seem
today, I believe you find a better future."
Faith in your future because you will learn to deal with your dysphoria. It might not be easy, but you come through stronger in the end. Dealing with dysphoria might mean doing medical transition. It might mean surgery. But it doesn’t have to. It can mean whatever it takes for you to finds peace and happiness in your life. No matter how bleak things might seem today, I believe you find a better future. Note, I don’t say that it will get better or that it will just happen. You will find it. You will go out and build that life. I know you can do it.
Monika: My pen friend Gina Grahame wrote to me once that we should not limit our potential because of how we were born or by what we see other transsexuals and transgender people doing. Our dreams should not end on an operating table; that’s where they begin. Do you agree with this?
Rachel: I completely agree.
What I often tell young trans people is this. There will be times in your life when being transgender will take up all of your life. This is especially true if you are coming out or in transition.
But there will also be times when being transgender will only be part of your life. There will be time to be other things, a friend, a lover, a parent, a spouse, or... anything you want to be.
Monika: Rachel, thank you for the interview!

All the photos: courtesy of Rachel Eliason. 
Done on 9 November 2017
© 2017 - Monika 

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