Monika: Today’s interview will be with Taylore (aka moonfire1777), a video blogger that documents her transition on YouTube. Hello Taylore!
Taylore: Well, I’m 26 years old, and in addition to being an active Video Vlogger, I am a graduate student. I’m currently pursing a Master of Arts in Teaching degree (M.A.T.) through a Transition to Teaching program at my university.
I have a Bachelor of Arts degree in History with minors in Mathematics and Language Arts, and my ultimate career aspiration is to teach mathematics at the high school level.
I have been transitioning since the summer of 2008, and I underwent Sexual Reassignment Surgery in 2009.
|Items for her future math classroom.|
However, I’ve had the privilege of undergoing HRT and SRS at a young age. In the summer of 2010, I decided to start vlogging because I felt I could empower others through my experiences.
Throughout my time on YouTube, I’ve made and taken down videos based on certain stages of my life. For instance, when I decided to pursue a career in education, I took down many videos because I feared what the exposure might do to my professional career.
As I’ve grown and matured, I’ve become less afraid of that, and I just monitor the content of my videos closely.
Now, I’m focusing on finding my place in the world beyond all of that. Right now, my primary goal is to teach mathematics, so that takes priority in my life. I would also like to travel more because I didn’t get to experience much during the early stages of transition-besides, of course, transitioning.
Monika: Could you describe your childhood? When did you feel for the first time that you should not be a boy or man?
My parents didn’t understand my behavior either, so they just allowed me to be feminine, assuming I was a very unique child. I did have a very happy childhood. My parents allowed me to express my female identity through toys and role playing, and that kept me happy for awhile. When I grew older and could no longer deal with the gender constraints placed on me, my parents grew to support me in my decision to transition.
|At A-Kon, Anime Convention in Texas.|
Therefore, many people never suspected I actually lived there. I was either in my room, or, when I left for class, I slipped out, unnoticed. It wasn’t until I started dating that I really experienced discrimination.
I would date someone, and eventually tell, and they would tell someone else until everyone knew. Some men who found me attractive would refuse to associate or date me for fear their friends would judge them.
This really affected me deeply, and I struggled concentrating on my studies. It wasn’t until I transferred to a bigger, public institution for my graduate studies that I felt unburdened by rumors. With a much wider and diverse student population, it’s harder for these things to spread, so very few people know about my transition at school.
I thought that if I had a chance to participate in more religious centered classes, I would lose my desire to transition. That never happened, of course, so I made a difficult choice to pursue my version of happiness, and I have no regrets about it.
Nowadays, I just try to live my life as a positive and happy person. I’m not sure what, exactly, I believe about God or religion now, so I just choose to be kind and love others.
As a result, many people are becoming aware that we exist, and not even just that we exist but that we’re normal people with emotions and dreams just like everyone else. We just happen to be born transgender. I think we have a long way to go still in terms of acceptance, but I remain positive and hopeful for future progress in this country.
|Her Mom and Dad - her personal heroes.|
So, yeah, I think it’s important for trans-women to be involved in politics to push for equal legislation, because I’m not sure anyone else will. The good news is, there are, in fact, many trans-women who remain active in politics, and I hope to be involved too. Like I said before, I think there definitely needs to be a place in our school system for trans-children, and successful lobbying will ensure this.
|Modeling Japanese Fashion for Can2 Images.|
I love Japanese and Asian fashion in general, and specifically, I love to sport flower patterned day dresses and high-waist, a-line skirts. For work, I try to keep it classy with blazers and pencil skirts, but I always make try to be feminine and chic!
However, I guess I would like to see less of a focus on making uniquely focused transgender beauty pageants and more of a focus on making trans-women a part of beauty pageants for women in general, like Miss America or Miss Universe.
I couldn’t face waking up everyday hating the person I saw in the mirror, so I pushed myself through every struggle. If you’re afraid, it’s OK. We all were afraid to transition when we started.
However, you have the right to be a version of yourself that can bring you fulfillment. Hold onto that right, and realize that you are a strong person, because if you can do this, you can do anything. People discriminate because they are ignorant, and don’t let their ignorance stop you from being happy. You are beautiful and brave.
|The love of her life, her dog, Yuki.|
In five to seven years, I would like to have an established career, and I hope I will have taken steps to make my family and community proud. Love with a nice and dependable man would be nice too, haha.