Monika: Today, I'm thrilled to have the opportunity to interview Ashlee Edwards, a vibrant and inspiring 19-year-old American video blogger who passionately shares her transition journey on YouTube. Ashlee uses her platform to connect with others, providing a sense of community and support for those navigating similar paths. With her creative background in film and television production, she not only documents her experiences but also seeks to empower others to embrace their true selves. When she's not filming, Ashlee enjoys hiking and spending time in nature, finding balance and tranquility in the great outdoors. Hello, Ashlee!
Ashlee: Hi Monika, it's a pleasure talking with you today.
Monika: To kick things off, could you share a little about yourself?
Ashlee: Sure, I'm 19 years old, really into film and television producing, and just like to go hiking and relax.
Monika: What motivated you to share your transition journey on YouTube?
Ashlee: I decided to share my transition in a hope to show that it is OK to be yourself, and to show other girls like me that you're not alone in this. I wanted to create a space where others could feel seen and validated in their experiences. By sharing my story, I hoped to break down the stigma surrounding transgender identities and encourage others to embrace their true selves. It’s important for me to let people know that they have a support system, even if it’s online. Seeing positive representation in media can inspire those who may be struggling with their own identities to find the courage to live authentically.
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| "I'm really in a comfortable place right now." |
Ashlee: I've been living full time as the woman I am for just over a year now. I've been taking hormones for a few months longer than that. I'm really in a comfortable place right now, and am just living life. I've learned to embrace my femininity and express myself more authentically.
Every day feels like a new opportunity to grow and discover more about who I am. I also find joy in connecting with other members of the community who share similar experiences, which has been incredibly supportive for my journey. Overall, I feel grateful for the progress I've made and excited for what's to come.
Monika: How do you feel about the results of your hormone therapy so far?
Ashlee: I am, I'm very happy. It's helped me to feel and look more like the woman I am. I'm very lucky to have been born with pretty feminine features already, but the hormones have definitely helped. I've noticed positive changes in my skin, body shape, and overall confidence. Each little change has made a significant difference in how I see myself.
I also appreciate the emotional stability that comes with hormone therapy, which has allowed me to embrace my identity even more fully. It's truly empowering to witness my transformation and feel more aligned with who I am inside.
Monika: Can you share a bit about your childhood? At what point did you first realize that you didn’t identify as a boy or man?
Ashlee: There wasn't really a specific time or revelation, but I've basically known in some way my whole life. I started researching what I was feeling when I was 11 or 12. And when I was 17 I fully accepted that this is who I am, and 18 when I came out. There had been moments where I've really felt like a girl, and then I think I would try and hide that, for fear of what my parents might think.
There were times in my childhood where it was pretty obvious though. I always hung out with girls more, I had a Barbie dream house, etc. Not to say that's the same examples for every trans girl or boy, just what I've noticed when looking back.
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| 1 year of hormones anniversary. |
Ashlee: Luckily for me I've not had to experience that yet. I came out right after high school, then I took a year off, and am going back to school this fall. So we'll see what happens then. However, I know that the experiences of others have shaped my perspective. I've heard so many stories of resilience and strength from those who have faced adversity in educational settings. I hope to use my platform to support and uplift those voices, emphasizing that everyone deserves a safe and affirming space to learn. I'm also prepared to advocate for myself and others if challenges arise.
Monika: Are there any transgender role models who inspire you and have influenced your journey?
Ashlee: Yes, there are several trans role models who I really look up to. Janet Mock, who is the former People Magazine.com editor and a political activist, is really one of my idols. She fights for us every single day, she's a great role model.
Also Laverne Cox, who is a trans actress, and is in a new show on Netflix called Orange Is the New Black (which is really good, by the way), is a big role model for me, as she is also in the entertainment industry.
These are just a few of the growing number of great role models that our community can look up to.
Monika: What was the most challenging aspect of your coming out experience?
Ashlee: The hardest thing about coming out for me was the fact that I didn't know how my parents and family would react, although they've all been supportive of me. I think the hardest part is probably the unknown because once you come out, you feel so much better. That uncertainty can create a lot of anxiety, making it tough to take that first step. In my case, I had spent years contemplating how to approach the conversation, which added to the pressure. Ultimately, though, I found that being true to myself was worth overcoming that fear, and it allowed me to build deeper connections with those who matter most.
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| Coming Out Transgender (YouTube) |
Monika: What are your thoughts on the current landscape for transgender women in the United States?
Ashlee: It's not great, but it's much better than what is was in the past, even like 5 years ago. It's constantly improving. More government agencies are letting people change their gender marker without surgery, and providing hormones for their employees. There's more awareness, and the support is constantly growing.
Monika: We’re seeing an increasing number of transgender women coming out and gaining recognition, with some becoming prominent figures in their fields. For instance, we have notable names like Lana Wachowski in film directing, Jenna Talackova in modeling, Kate Bornstein in academia, Laura Jane Grace in music, and Candis Cayne in acting. Do you think this trend will continue, leading to even more transgender women achieving visibility and success in various industries?
Monika: We’re seeing an increasing number of transgender women coming out and gaining recognition, with some becoming prominent figures in their fields. For instance, we have notable names like Lana Wachowski in film directing, Jenna Talackova in modeling, Kate Bornstein in academia, Laura Jane Grace in music, and Candis Cayne in acting. Do you think this trend will continue, leading to even more transgender women achieving visibility and success in various industries?
Ashlee: I do. I think as our society gets more accepting, people will feel more comfortable coming out and being who they are. As representation grows in media and entertainment, it creates role models for younger generations, inspiring them to pursue their passions. Additionally, increased visibility can help challenge stereotypes and misconceptions about transgender people, fostering a more inclusive environment. I believe that as more transgender women gain success, it will pave the way for even greater acceptance and opportunities across various fields. Ultimately, this progress benefits not only the transgender community but society as a whole by promoting diversity and understanding.
Monika: Do you believe that in our lifetime, we could see a transgender woman rise to the position of President of the United States?
Ashlee: I certainly think that someday that could happen, I'm just not sure how long it will take. I think that society is becoming more accepting, but I think that especially in America that there are still a lot of bigoted people, that it could take a long time for a trans President to become a reality. Although I sincerely hope that I'll be able to see it happen.
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| Year and half on hormones. |
Monika: What is your relationship with fashion? Can you describe your personal style and the types of outfits you typically enjoy wearing?
Ashlee: I do like fashion. I'm not really that big into it, but I do love looking at photos of it. I would say my style is pretty modest. Usually just a pair of jeans and a top. I really like flowy tops, like peasant blouse, etc.
I know, I know, they're kinda out of style, but I still have a soft spot for them. I also really like loose tank tops. And of course flouncy dresses and skirts, haha. I really love navy blue, and cream.
Ashlee: I do like fashion. I'm not really that big into it, but I do love looking at photos of it. I would say my style is pretty modest. Usually just a pair of jeans and a top. I really like flowy tops, like peasant blouse, etc.
I know, I know, they're kinda out of style, but I still have a soft spot for them. I also really like loose tank tops. And of course flouncy dresses and skirts, haha. I really love navy blue, and cream.
Monika: What are your thoughts on transgender beauty pageants?
Ashlee: I think that transgender beauty pageants are all right, as long as it's tasteful and not offensive. Although I think that most trans women don't want special treatment and would just like to compete in standard beauty pageants. Drag queen pageants, on the other hand, I find offensive, as they seem to make fun of trans women, and it's like taking a step back for trans rights. I believe that beauty pageants should focus on celebrating individuality and diversity rather than reinforcing stereotypes. It's essential to create an environment where all participants feel respected and valued for who they are. Ultimately, if done thoughtfully, these pageants can empower transgender women and promote greater visibility within the beauty industry.
Monika: How involved are you in your local LGBT community?
Ashlee: I'm not involved in my local LGBT community, as there isn't really a community where I live right now. Although I'm moving to a bigger city this fall and plan to be involved there, I'm eager to connect with others who share similar experiences. I believe that being part of a community can be incredibly empowering and affirming. In the meantime, I'm very involved in online petitions and advocacy work, which I believe is important too. It's essential to use our voices to support and uplift one another, even if it's through digital platforms until I can engage more locally. Building connections, whether online or in person, can help create a stronger sense of belonging and support for everyone in the LGBT community.
Monika: Do you envision a future where you get married and start a family?
Ashlee: I completely intend to have a wife and kids some day. It's very important to me. I haven't dated before actually, as I wasn't able to be who I am before a few years ago. But I very much am looking for love, and want to be loved in return. And I'd really like to adopt, and be a mom.
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| Transgender Makeup Tutorial (YouTube) |
Monika: What advice would you offer to transgender women who may be hesitant about early transition due to fears of discrimination and hatred?
Ashlee: I would say that while it is scary at first, once you are able to be yourself, it truly is liberating and wonderful. The earlier you transition, the better, as it gives your body more room to adapt and change, but you've got to do what's most comfortable for you first and foremost.
Discrimination and hate are very scary, but I would say it's more important to be yourself and not let anyone tell you differently. You've got to be yourself, but also when it's the most comfortable and safe. Surrounding yourself with supportive friends and allies can make a huge difference in your journey.
It's essential to educate yourself about your rights and the resources available to you. Remember that your happiness and authenticity are worth the challenges, and you are not alone in this fight. Embrace your unique journey and know that there is a vibrant community ready to support you.
Monika: What are your current goals, and where do you envision yourself in the next 5 to 7 years?
Ashlee: Next step for me is going to school, and then hopefully becoming a television producer. Transition wise, I'm going to be starting electrolysis on preparation for surgery.
Monika: Would you say that you are a happy woman now?
Ashlee: I am definitely a happy woman, yes. Very very happy.
Monika: Ashlee, it was a pleasure to interview you. Thanks a lot!
Ashlee: Of course, Monika! It was fun! Thank you.
All the photos: courtesy of Ashlee Edwards.
