As far as my music, I am still in a space of creating and getting better. I'm honing my craft by writing more and more in the hopes that I will be able to get some financial support to produce an album of my own original work.
I am building my presence as a transgender woman in the social media arena. There are so few examples of non-sexual role models for transwomen. I want to be one of them.
Yes, I was more prone to things that are stereotypically associated with girls like dolls and dresses. My natural demeanour and mannerism were feminine and also associated with being “girly”. People treated me differently than other boys.
My classmates in school teased me about acting like a girl. My uncle would rough me up when I was young and tell me to stop acting like a faggot. I didn't know what “gay” meant at the time because I was not sexually active. But I know that how I acted naturally was something people didn't like and I knew I had to hide it. So there I was this naturally extrovert type person forced to be timid and introverted.
As I got older things changed. I met gay boys and at first I thought that that maybe the mold that I fit in. I quickly realized that wasn't it. Being gay didn't feel like home. It felt close to home but still not home. I didn't know what transgender was before 12. I didn't even know it was possible. It wasn't in my realm of thought. So if I said I knew I was transgender before that it would be a lie.
Before 12, it didn't have a name. I just knew that based of the two genders that I knew were possible, I was more like what I thought a girl was than what a boy was in my mind. Meeting another trans person living as the opposite sex they were born was the catalyst that allowed me to diagnose myself with it based on my feeling and interaction with the world. It created the possibility that a boy could actually BE a girl. There was something I could do about my situation. But once I learned I changed my mind set and my journey began to make my outside project my inside.
Yes, I had some hassle in high school and in college but over all it made me stronger and the good times outweighed the bad by so much. And at the end of the day, I have my degree in Psychology.... So whatever they were trying to do to stop me or stress me out FAILED... Because I still reached my goal.... lol.
|Diamond and her friend Valeria Spencer.|
Started hormones at 16. Every thing started to change over high school ... By the time I left high school, I was a B cup with a full head of hair living my womanhood fulltime ... lol.
As I got older I learned more about blending in society, make-up application, more hormonal changes, and silicone work I had done. I just became more passable over time. Even now... I want FFS to take me to the next level. I think the ability to pass is a process for all of us. Sometime that process is more difficult than others and that doesn't make any of us less of a woman or less entitled to be the woman we are.
I think as I grow older I'm getting more adamant about the community, NOT stressing pass-ability. I think that passability and surgeries are now used as a marker of trans validation which in turn allows for more divisiveness in the community which unfortunately seems justifies discrimination inside and out the community.
We want the mainstream society to not invalidate our woman based on our birth genitalia but then we hypocritically invalidate our own kind based on whether or not they are passable or not...or if they have breasts or not ... or if they have a man-made vagina or not etc. I think it is unfortunate and we need to check that problem from the inside out.
|Diamond and FTM transactivist Louis Mitchell.|
As a matter of fact, the older girl in my area was really fake, mean, and nasty. I think that is why now that I am someone that younger trans girls can look up to I try to be as nice as I can and helpful as I can when my life allows that.
Monika: What was the hardest thing about your coming out?
Diamond: The hardest thing at the time was getting the information about surgery and hormones. I wasn't very studious at the time and I never thought of going to the library. So the only info I would get was a word of mouth. No hard concrete fact about transition. That had to be the hardest part for me.
Another hard part was coming to reality about being objectified. When I was younger, the male attention was some weird twisted unhealthy validation of my womanhood. I thought it was hot to be wanted as a woman. Now I realized that that need for validation can be taken advantage of by fetish seekers. It's nothing wrong with being wanted. Just make sure you are being loved in your totality not just loved for your body parts.
Monika: What did you feel when you were finally a woman?
Diamond: It wasn't a big change for me like that. This in my mind was the natural progression of things. Think about puberty. It starts slowly and just ends when you are a mature adult. In the puberty process. You are not really thinking about it. It's just happening and your thoughts and actions are adjusting as those changes occur.
That's what I felt about my transition. It happened so gradually that it wasn't some big mental epiphany. This was who I am... This was my path and destiny in life... A young lil femme boy that grows into a transwoman. I feel happy that I had the courage to follow that path The only time I recollected about it is when I see a miserable closeted trans women scared to live.
|With her younger brother.|
Diamond: I have never been married. I have been in 5-year long relationship. Love is very elusive for a normal person but for a trans person even more so.
We have the world against us. The world telling the men that love us that it is not OK. The world ready and willing to do whatever it takes to devalue us and invalidate our marriage and loves. With all that going on I still feel love is one of the most important things in life and I won't give up on it.
I feel love it's out here for me and any other transwomen. I am working on more education, establishing my career, making me a better woman while I wait on love to come. Until it comes, I will enjoy dating and even a casual safe sexual liaison every now and then.
The world is changing because of the ground breaking that we all are doing right now. And one day, transwomen will be able to love freely, until then we have to keep searching and finding happiness elsewhere until love finds us.
Monika: What do you enjoy most in being a woman?
Monika: What is your general view on the present situation of transgender women in the American society?
Diamond: When I just look at the American society by itself I would say the situation was bad because it is so much more that can be done to make transgender women's lives better.
When I compare to other countries, I say we are blessed, because some countries are soooo far behind when it comes to transgender rights and respect that I can't even imagine living in those areas. Like Uganda, India , South America, and Arab nations these places scare me but the fight must go on and I hope to be a part of movement to change the world's view of us.
Diamond: Absolutely. Times are changing and we are all growing in number not because it's the end of the world and sin is running a muck but because we are being more bold and being more protected. We are realizing that we can fight for our right to be. More and more transwomen are speaking out.
They are not just transitioning, going deep stealth hiding their past, and dying making no mark for the future generations. They are breaking the barrier down. There were transwomen that came before the women you named that broke barriers to allow those women a chance. They are to be honoured and thanked. Now that we have been passed the torch, it's our turn to keep pushing the envelope for the transgirls of the 2020's and 2030's and so on...
|Workshop on the gender binary with Chris Paige.|
Diamond: This is war of social change. Casualties are inevitable and unpreventable. The Civil Right Movement of the 1960's, the Apartheid battle in South Africa, India's independence from the British lead by Ghandi, even Poland in the mid-40s fighting against communism had casualties.
In our own civil war, we will have martyrs and casualties, we are fighting for change and justice... As the fight goes on the casualties will lessen because we will create the change we are fighting for!
Monika: Do you think that in our lifetime we could live to the day when a transgender lady could become the President of USA?
Diamond: No! It took from 1870 when the amendment was ratified to give Blacks the right to vote in the US to 2008 to elect a bi-racial man to the presidency. That is 138 years of Jim Crow, lynching, deaths and racism going underground and hidden... just to get enough social change to get a Black president.
It will be a LONG time after I'm dead before I see a trans president. I'm not a cynic though, I'm a realist. If there is a trans women with the education and potential, I say go for it... if your views and history match mine, she will get my vote.
Diamond: I take pride in being transgender. In recent years I have found problem with transwomen who try to fully assimilate into the woman gender and not giving honor to their paths. We are women but we are a TYPE of woman.
Like a Black woman, a fat woman, a tall woman etc I don't mind a pageant that celebrates the transgender type of woman. Should we all be treated equally as women YES of course... but nothing is wrong with having pride in what and who you are.
|With Chaz Bono, Cher's son.|
Diamond: I love fashion. If I was to describe my fashion I would say it was called a rustic elegance. I have a taste for the earthy outdoor but also elegant and sophisticated apparel and I look for things that mix those ideas well.
I love Black... not because it's dark but because it looks good by itself but if you put it with anything else it makes it look that much better.
Monika: Are your involved in the life of your local LGBT community?
I share my talents. I give advice to transwomen, gay men, natal born women, and men who date us or anybody really that can relate to me and my stories. It is a great experience that allows me to meet people that I never would have met. My YouTube channel is growing and has reached over 2.1 million views and almost 8,000 subscribers. I am so proud of it.
Diamond: Yes, that is one of my many goals to write a few books and have a few albums. I actually have a acting role in the works as well. Maybe even some reality TV... lol. So many things are on the horizon. We all have stories to tell. I don't want the world to forget me like so many of my trans sisters before me; their stories have been lost or erased.
Monika: Could you say that you are a happy woman now?
Diamond: I was a happy lil trans child then and I grew to become a happy trans woman now.
Monika: Diamond, thank you for the interview!
Diamond: Thanks for having me!