Monika: Today’s interview will be with Jenna Arriving1, a video blogger that documents her transition on YouTube. Hello Jenna!
I wanted to share my journey with others so they could see that they are also not alone. I wanted to provide a blog that was realistic about everyday issues that transgender women face. It also wanted a personal record of my transition.
However, I occasionally look at my old pictures pre HRT and I am amazed at what has happened to me. It like trying to watch a child grow up. You will not see the child grow if you just stand and stare at it. However if you see it after a year the child will look different and will have grown.
I was not bullied that much at school mainly because I kept such a low profile. I was a good looking boy and I always got the attention of girls even if I didn’t want it. That helped keep the bullies at bay as I was seen as a bit of a chick magnet even if I didn’t like it. I played along with it. My twin brother was the same but he enjoyed the attention. I was the quiet one.
Monika: What is your general view on the present situation of transgender women in the American society?
Despite that, transgender issues remain largely under the radar. People are just not that comfortable with trans issues. A lot of time, media coverage is sensationalist or negative. Pictures portray trans people as either tragic or sleazy. Things have moved on legally, but there is so much more work to be done until trans people get the acknowledgement they deserve.
I try to dress femininely and wear dresses etc, however they can look odd on me as I have broad shoulders and a broad back. I research what designs would suit my body shape best and use these ideas to help me choose outfits when I go shopping.
|Hats suit her now since having her FFS.|
Love is the most important thing in my life. It’s what makes life worthwhile. Having been without it for a couple of years has been extremely tough for me because it is so important.
Sometimes I just miss a cuddle or a kiss. I miss sharing my stories of my day, holding a man’s hand. Spoiling him, and having a companion. I am not driven by career, money, or status. I just want a man to love, and for a man to love me.
Monika: What would you recommend to transgender women that are afraid of early transition, discrimination and hatred?
Jenna: Just look in the mirror. You have to listen to your heart on this one. Listening to what you head tells you will make you accept that society is a cruel hard place and that life will be too hard.
Listening to your head may tell you that other people will think bad of you, and your family could be ashamed of you... because that might be true. Listen to your heart, hear yourself, truly listen to what you want. You heart, your mind, your body. Nobody else’s, yours. You will have the answer.
Monika: What is your next step in the present time and where do you see yourself within the next 5-7 years?
Jenna: Wow big question. The next step for me is to just continue to make a successful life for myself as a woman. In the next 5-7 years I want to have completed my medical transition. SRS done, boob job done, and all of my laser and electrolysis complete.
I actually believe that to be a real possibility within the next 12 months. Most of all I just want to meet someone and fall in love. Buy or rent a place together and build a life again. After that... all I could wish for is to be healthy and happy.
Monika: Could you say that you are a happy woman now?
Jenna: Yes I am. Life is still tough and I still feel lonely but the main difference is that I am being myself and being true. That is something I could never let go of again.
Monika: Jenna, it was a pleasure to interview you. Thanks a lot!