What sets Mana apart is not only her honesty, but the way she gently pushes against the grain. A self-proclaimed metalhead who dresses in black but dreams in color, she walks her own road with dignity and dark eyeliner. Her transition isn’t a loud proclamation, it’s a personal symphony of tiny, deliberate steps toward wholeness. In our conversation, Mana shares the emotional peaks and valleys of her experience, her views on society and reform, and her hope for a future rooted in self-love and financial independence. In her words and silences alike, Mana reminds us that happiness isn’t something granted, it’s something grown. And in telling her story, she offers that growth to others, petal by petal.
Monika: Mana Weindel is a young and inspiring video blogger who invites us into her world through candid YouTube videos chronicling her gender transition. Her honesty and quiet strength have touched many who are walking similar paths. Mana, thank you for joining me today. It’s a pleasure to speak with you!
Mana: Hello, Monika! Thank you for the interview. It is an honor to be able to participate. I never expected that sharing my story online would lead to something like this. It's both exciting and a little surreal to be recognized in this way. I hope that by being open, I can help others feel a little less alone. Every story matters, and I’m glad to have a chance to tell mine.
Monika: For those who may not yet know you, how would you describe yourself? What kind of life are you building, and what brings you joy day to day?
Mana: Sure. I live in Denmark by myself in an apartment, and I have a lot of friends, whom I love very much. I’m not exactly big on words, but I will do my best. I enjoy quiet evenings and deep conversations with the people closest to me. Music is a big part of my life, it helps me process emotions and feel connected. I also spend a lot of time reflecting on where I’ve been and where I want to go. I’m still figuring things out, but I think that’s okay.
Monika: Sharing one’s transition journey online takes a lot of courage. What inspired you to open up about such a personal experience on YouTube? Was there a specific moment or feeling that pushed you to hit “record”?
Mana: I have seen a lot of transition videos myself, so maybe I got the idea from there. I have always loved attention, though I'm very critical of myself. At first, it felt strange to put myself out there, but I realized it could help someone else the way those videos once helped me. It became a way to track my own growth and see how far I’ve come. Sometimes I get messages from people saying my videos gave them hope, and that really touches me. Even if I doubt myself, I know the impact is real. It reminds me that vulnerability can be powerful.
Monika: Transitioning is such a personal and evolving journey. Where are you currently in that process, and how has it shaped your everyday life so far?
Mana: At this point, I have been on HRT for about five months, and even though it might seem longer, I can only say I know my makeup. The changes are gradual, but I’m starting to notice small differences that make me feel more like myself. Emotionally, things feel more in tune, like my inside and outside are slowly beginning to match. There’s a calmness that comes with finally taking steps you’ve dreamed about for years. Some days are still hard, but overall, I feel like I’m finally moving forward.
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Monika: Many trans women describe a wide range of emotions when it comes to the physical aspects of their transition. How do you feel about the changes you’ve experienced through hormone therapy, and what are your thoughts as you look ahead to gender-affirming surgery?
Mana: Yes, I am, very. GRS is not until later, though, but I am getting to it. I feel grateful for the progress so far, even if it's still a work in progress. HRT has already brought me closer to the person I’ve always seen in my mind. I know surgery will be another important step, but I’m giving myself the time I need. It’s not about rushing, it’s about doing what feels right, when it feels right.
Monika: Looking back, childhood can be both revealing and painful for many trans people. When did you first sense that your gender didn’t align with the expectations placed on you, and how did that understanding evolve over time?
Mana: I think that my first thoughts about it were around the age of 5. I was living in a very gender-binary culture, so my parents later took me to see a psychologist. Since then, my life has been chaos, until recently, at the age of 28. Most of my life is clouded in a gray mist, in a way. I cannot seem to remember it clearly, but at the age of 17, I moved out alone. I did not even consider my sexual orientation back then, I was too confused and acting on instinct most of the time.
At age 18, I fell in love with a boy. Him rejecting me set off many years of denial and depression, which resulted in me not really moving forward with education or work. It has been a big mess. I was carrying so much pain that I didn't have the language to express. For a long time, I felt like I was surviving instead of living. Only recently have I started to feel like I’m emerging from that fog. It’s been slow, but every step toward healing matters.
Monika: School environments can be incredibly challenging for trans people, especially when it comes to feeling safe, seen, and supported. What was your experience like in educational settings? Did you find any spaces that allowed you to explore your identity, or was it mostly a time of struggle?
Mana: I was 27, I remember, when I started the school. I think it was the seventh one I had attended, dropping out of all the others. Anyway, when I was attending that school, I came to realize my situation through a lot of smaller events. They were very nice, and it helps that the school by default has unisex toilets. That small detail made a big difference in how comfortable I felt. It was the first time I could exist in a space without having to constantly justify myself. The environment allowed me to breathe a little easier and reflect on who I truly was. For once, I wasn’t trying to survive, I was just trying to learn.
Monika: Many people find strength and inspiration in role models who have walked similar paths. Are there any transgender figures who have influenced you, or do you prefer to forge your own way without following others?
Mana: There are a few that I think are good role models, but I would like to stress that I do not follow anyone. I choose my own path in life. I believe everyone’s journey is unique, and what works for one person might not work for another. While I appreciate the visibility and courage of others, I try to focus on what feels authentic to me. It’s important for me to stay true to myself, rather than fitting into someone else’s story. That’s how I find my own strength and confidence every day.
Monika: Coming out can be one of the most vulnerable and difficult moments in a trans person’s life. What was the hardest part of coming out for you, and how did that experience shape your relationship with your loved ones?
Mana: Telling my mother, I did not sleep for, I think, about three days. You see, I realized that I had known from a very early age. So telling my mom, who has known me my entire life, would throw her severely off balance. I actually never told her directly, I couldn’t. Instead, I got her to take a walk with me, where I found the term "Gender Dysphoria" on my smartphone and gave it to her to read. Then I sat down, crying my heart out. It was the most raw and honest moment we’ve ever shared. I was terrified of losing her, but I also knew I couldn’t keep hiding who I was. Over time, that moment became a turning point for both of us, opening a door for understanding, even if it took time. It showed me how deeply love and fear can coexist.
Monika: How would you describe the current climate for transgender women in your country? Are there any political or social changes on the horizon that give you hope, or cause concern?
Mana: We are in a somewhat precarious situation right now, with a few reforms coming up. Until now, we have been governed by rules dating back to the 1930s, when castration was considered a proper way to treat homosexuality and sex offenders. The situation is a little unstable due to politicians being swapped out and possibly a new election coming. If that election happens, we might almost go back to square one and have to fight all over again. It’s exhausting to feel like progress can be undone so easily. Still, many of us continue to push forward, hoping for lasting change. I believe awareness is growing, even if the laws lag behind. We need allies and voices in power to keep fighting for basic rights and dignity.
The transgender community here remains resilient, and support networks are slowly becoming stronger. Social attitudes are improving among younger generations, which gives me some hope for the future. However, misinformation and prejudice are still widespread, creating daily challenges for many trans people. It’s important to stay visible and vocal, to educate and advocate wherever possible. For me personally, staying connected with activists and participating in community events has been empowering. I also see more conversations happening in the media, which helps normalize trans experiences. While there is uncertainty, I remain cautiously optimistic that change is possible with continued effort.
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Monika: In recent years, more transgender women have stepped into the spotlight, gaining recognition as celebrities and influential figures, like Lana Wachowski in film, Jenna Talackova in modeling, Kate Bornstein in academia, Laura Jane Grace in music, and Candis Cayne in acting. Do you see this growing visibility reflected in Denmark’s transgender community as well?
Mana: True, I do see it more often. Not here in Denmark though; we only have a few gay celebrities. It feels like visibility is still quite limited, which can make it harder for young trans people to find role models nearby. Sometimes it seems like the world is moving faster than our local culture. But every small step matters, and I hope to see more Danish trans women gain the recognition they deserve. Representation gives people hope and strength, and that’s something we desperately need.
The lack of prominent trans figures here means many rely on international role models instead. This can create a feeling of distance or disconnect from the community. However, social media is helping bridge that gap by connecting people globally. I believe that as awareness grows, we’ll start to see more Danish trans voices amplified. Community organizations are working hard to create safe spaces where talent and stories can flourish. Ultimately, visibility helps break down stereotypes and build understanding. It also encourages younger generations to embrace their identities with pride. I’m optimistic that with time, Denmark’s transgender community will shine brighter on the public stage. The journey is slow, but the momentum is building, and that fills me with hope.
Monika: Are you personally involved in political activism or advocacy for transgender rights? Do you participate in any lobbying efforts? More broadly, how do you see the role of transgender women influencing politics and policy?
Mana: I am not directly involved, but I speak with those who are. And yes, they do make a difference. It’s inspiring to see transgender women raising their voices and pushing for real change. Political engagement is crucial because laws affect our daily lives in very tangible ways. Even from the sidelines, supporting those activists feels important to me. I believe that as more transgender women enter the political arena, they will reshape conversations and policies for the better.
Monika: How would you describe your personal style? What kinds of clothes do you usually wear, and are there any colors, designers, or fashion trends that you feel especially drawn to?
Mana: I’m a metalhead, so it’s mostly black, but I like it stylish though. Fashion for me is a way to express who I am and feel confident in my skin. I enjoy mixing edgy pieces with something a little more polished. Black feels like a safe and powerful color, but I also like experimenting with textures and accessories. It’s not just about clothes, but the attitude they give me.
Monika: What are your thoughts on transgender beauty pageants? Do you see them as empowering spaces, or do you have a more critical perspective on their role within the community?
Mana: Haha, I think they are good fun. They can be a great way for people to celebrate their identity and feel glamorous. It’s nice to see spaces where trans women can shine and be recognized. At the same time, I think it’s important that these events stay inclusive and respectful of everyone’s unique journey. Ultimately, if it brings joy and confidence, that’s what matters most.
Monika: How connected are you with your local LGBT community? Do you participate in any in-person events, support groups, or online forums? How important is community involvement for you during your transition?
Mana: Yes, well, it tends to be mostly online. The internet has really helped me find a safe space to connect with others who understand what I’m going through. Sometimes it’s hard to attend physical events, but I try to stay active in online discussions and support groups. Even virtual connections can make a big difference when you feel isolated. Being part of a community, in any form, gives me strength and hope.
Monika: Many transgender women feel scared about starting their transition because of potential discrimination and negative reactions. What advice would you give to those who are hesitant or afraid to take those first steps?
Mana: What I did was to start the change slowly by dressing more androgynous, and keeping it that way, then gradually changing by adding low heels and such. People usually have an easier time accepting small changes at a time. Taking things step by step also helped me build confidence and adjust to my new identity at my own pace. It gave me time to observe how others reacted and feel more secure. Patience and self-compassion are key because transition is deeply personal. I believe everyone’s journey is unique, and it’s okay to move forward in a way that feels safe and right for you.
It’s important to find a support system, whether friends, family, or online communities, who understand and respect your process. Remember that setbacks or negative reactions do not define you or your worth. Surround yourself with positive influences and seek professional help if needed. Celebrate every small victory, no matter how minor it seems. Most importantly, be kind to yourself and trust that your courage will lead to a happier, more authentic life.
Monika: What are your immediate goals right now, and where do you envision yourself in the next five to seven years?
Mana: My next step is to get a job. I am planning to invest and live off that, everyone needs a plan in life, and mine is financial freedom. Of course, gender reassignment surgery is part of that plan. If I can get it done before I turn 30, I definitely would. Over the next few years, I want to build stability both personally and professionally. I hope to create content that inspires others while growing my own career. Finding balance and happiness is my ultimate goal. And, of course, continuing my transition with confidence and self-love will be a big part of that journey.
Monika: Would you say that you are a happy woman now?
Mana: Yes, happiness comes from within. You cannot become happy from anything else, you can be distracted, but not truly happy. It’s a mindset I’ve worked hard to cultivate throughout my journey. Finding peace with myself has been the biggest breakthrough. I’ve learned to embrace my flaws and celebrate my strengths. Now, happiness feels more genuine and lasting than ever before.
Monika: Mana, thank you so much for sharing your story with me today. It’s been an absolute pleasure talking with you!
All the photos: courtesy of Mana Weindel.
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